dear friend

i know that we really have not spent much time together in the last year.
and actually the last couple of years we have really been on again and off again.
you have been very patient.
you have waited.... on the side-lines.
you have been faithful.

i have missed you.
no, really..... i have.
 it was nice to spend time with you the other day.
well.....okay, that is not true.
it was painful to spend time together.
we are awkward.
 we just don't have the same rhythm anymore.
we are out of sync.
i think this will take some time.
we'll get back there.
i think.
i hope.
it just takes time....right?
we've been here before.
stating all over.
starting from the beginning.
it takes time to get comfortable.
it takes time to find our pace.
it takes time to settle back in to it.
we have to take it slow, breath and relax.
we are old friends.
easy strides.
we'll get there.
i have to be patient with myself.....
i have really missed you.
i think......












ps. i spent time with your close friend, "my running clothes," and that felt even stranger. i felt like am imposter trying to re-capture all our many miles together.

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livelaffluv said…
it's the beauty of running, sweet. it's always there when you are ready to come back to it. :)
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