irrational moments

sometimes it feels as if the universe is out to get me.

thursday: micah cried for twenty minutes after his nap. i was sitting on the floor in his room with two crying boys. these boys hate me.

friday: micah was really, really tough all morning. we had to leave the house so i did not send him to meet his maker. at the park, he was doing the opposite of everything i said. i think he was replaced by a pod-person during the night. micah hates me.

friday PM: micah cried for 40 minutes straight. he was inconsolable. he went to bed without dinner because he wouldn't calm down enough to sit down and take a bite.... it was a good dinner too. we felt bad for him.... he was a mess.

friday night PM/saturday AM: asher woke up at 11, 2:30, 4:15. at 2:30 & 4:15 he was awake for about half an hour.... not crying just making noise.... i was trying to sleep. that didn't really happen. asher hates me.

saturday: my body is against me. i got out of bed, nursed the baby, and hit the YMCA. my body was more than resistant. it flat out hates me. trying to beat it into submission was not working.... my body won. i caved and switched from the elliptical machine to the bike. the tv was not working on the bike.... my consolation of VH1 was totally denied. the Y hates me.

i got home..... to three smiling boys.... my family loves me.
i am loved.... it is sometimes hard to remember just how loved i am when things are going so badly.

Comments

Peanutbutter said…
you are eloquent. and i love you too.
5:57 PM EDT
Carolyn & Tim Hunter said…
i like this post a lot. especially the 'happy ending' of going home to those you love, and those who love you back. :)
9:49 AM EDT
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

happy halloween

Image
ninja with his sister after his class party okay, is she a teenager?? we only made it about 5 minutes before the wig was tossed.  zombie soccer player, ninja, and rapunzel. our cul-de-sac!! trick or treating with friends was SO fun!!! best year ever. (maybe because we didn't have a stroller and didn't have to carry anyone!!)
Read more

and we will be out numbered....

as of monday, i am through my first trimester with sweet baby #3. the sweet children will out number the adults come the beginning of march. as john likes to comment about my day to day coping skills, "her body is betraying her" as i adjust to pregnancy and surviving with two small children. i still can't find our flash drive to upload pictures....i'll work on it. it requires clearing off the computer desk which exists in the middle of the living room due to the plaster/drywall work being done to patch up the hole from the toilet leak. supposedly the new hardwood floors are supposed to arrive this week.....which means we could potentially move out of the office and back into our bedroom in a couple of weeks!!! the small pleasures in life!
Read more

more tidbits

i find it interesting....... .......how the two boys are in sync already. apparently we had not weathered the worst of operation big boy-no paci....he cried for almost an hour. what we thought would be an early bedtime was not....then asher (who was supposed to sleep until 2) woke up at midnight only to be followed by big brother 10 minutes later "scared." .......how 20 & 30 years olds (including myself) walk around the locker room delicately covered up by the towel that is slightly too small to cover my rumpus..... and yet the 50 & 60 years old strut around with no shame. nora ephron claims that the things that we things we hate about out bodies in our 20s will be the things we long for in our 50s. funny how that works...maybe i'll lose my abandon and sit in the sauna naked as a jaybird..... naw!!! .......how fun sitting on the kitchen counter while daddy cooks is for a two year old. .......how much i want to cut my hair. .......how excited i am to have gott...
Read more